A vicious thought enters,

The caves of my mind,

………….And gets lost

The thought, or should I say.

An enquiry.. a question..

That rankles me no end.

So, what does it ask me ?

Did I try hard enough ?

In a tone which indicts. ..

That I didn’t.

But try what ?

Obviously to build…

Build what?

A beautiful life..

Oh! My.. Will this nefarious

Thought ever know..

Or for that matter..

Would anyone know

That how much hard I tried..

People with peculiar faces

..with ever peculiar thoughts

meet me.. almost everyday

That doesn’t necessarily mean

That I meet them .

They come and go…

Commenting on what

I should have done.

And What I should have not.

People…self conceited.. deceited..

Having little ideas as to their doings.

Would like to radiate their ideas -

What an example of pristine hypocrisy..

The.. thought.. the question..

Which has gifted me.. consistently.

A thousand sleepless nights...

Has been lost in the caves…

of my mind..& won’t come out

Why don’t you..

why don’t you, I shout..

I did try hard.. .

To the very last drop..

But something was wrong..

Obviously.. definitely..

I did try hard.,

To the very last drop..

But I realize, I was looking

For jewelry in a footwear shop..

I was trying to ..

Build a beautiful life…

But then, life has always..

Been exquisite ..inherently..

I should have most certainly,

Looked within…which has been in

Confrontation with the without..

That was ugly always…

Life was beautiful always..

The caves of my mind, I know not ?

The thought-the inquisition ..

I care no longer.. for it is lost.. forever.